Instinct and Institutions
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We received an overwhelming response to Jonathan's Thought for the Day 22nd March 2000.
A big thank you to everyone who wrote and shared their thoughts.
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Jonathan's Thought for the Day
During the recent full moon, I have been thinking long and hard
about instinct; what is it? And why do some people experience it more than
others? It occurs to me that, just as certain great artists and musicians
live on the edge of what some people call insanity, there may be natural
psychics who get into a similar state. What if, languishing in the asylums
or institutions of this world are some of the most gifted people on this
planet? They are, presumably,there because they cannot cope with the
intensity of the visions they are seeing, the voices they are hearing or the
impulses they are feeling. I strongly suspect that some alcoholics or people
with heavy drug habits have arrived at their state of dependency for much
the same reason.They simply can't find any other way to limit their level of
natural sensitivity. If you have any constructive thoughts on this topic,
please drop me a line.
Christina says to stay on track an element of control is essential:
"If you want my thoughts about the people with special vision, many
things are possible, but the mind in that realm as in others can only be
beneficial and productive if there is a sense of control and a sense of
assimilation that does not supersede the individual. Only then are we on
track."
Donna knows first hand of both the blessing and the curse of being
sensitive.
"I feel compelled to respond to your thoughts for the day as my full-moon
musings were of the very same sort.
It was only yesterday that I was sharing some of them with a very dear
friend. I have been on both sides of the institution gate . My friend made
the comment to me that it must have been horrible to have been there with so
many very sick people. I told her in only a few respects, but that the most
incredible people I have ever met, I have met in psychiatric hospitals. I
was also telling some of the "full moon"antics that would go on. The
energy then was something else again!
I know first hand that what you have written to be true for many, many
people. There are such fuzzy margins between insanity and enlightenment.
The voices and the vision - a blessing and a curse. There must be a better
way than to lock away these precious treasures."
Bill in Kentucky is a sensitive and can detect the different phases of the
moon. Just how, he doesn�t know. 'It�s an unknown driver,' is his comment.
And he concludes:
"About alcohol or drugs... to each their own, I drink occasionally.
Conditioning is the key, how to interpret what is happening in my
sensitivity range and cooling it down as necessary. I can definitely
recognize those who are also sensitive, and cool this down by relation
of what is happening to them."
'Balance is the key' to both mental and physical illness, writes Santana:
"I think that mental illness is like physical illness. It often happens
because the immune or defensive system isn't up to par. And it�s equally
unhealthy, though, when these systems overfunction. Balance is the key.
Over-sensitivity to the environment results in overreactions to it (like
allergies). Over-sensitivity to the psychic or emotional environment results
in overreactions also. When one becomes physically ill it's important to
recognize it as soon as possible to actively begin some form of healing
process. I think this is true of mental illness as well. When things get too
raw it's best to find a way to begin healing. I think going to bed for a
couple of days works well in both cases and if you don't think it's getting
better call for help. (Or at least call a friend for sympathy to start with
- that can heal a lot). but once it's reached the point where you have to be
hospitalized it's serious.
To say that people with mental illness see or experience things that others
of us don't is true but so do people who have cancer. Either way it's
painful. Over exposure is over exposure. So wear your sunscreen, and if it's
raining out, wear your goloshes. Just remember to take them off when the sun
comes out or you'll end up with a nasty foot rash."
Holly in California has more of a 'quandary' than a 'comment':
"I feel that I fit into the natural psychic category and have painstakingly
numbed my senses with bakery foods and mindless television. There are so
many things that I'd love to say, but the words are lost in my self-imposed
Piscean haze. It's a crazy place to live.
I can no longer unearth the burial ground of my own intuitive thinking. I'm
too numbed out. Sure, I can take the edge off the volume, the brightness
off the lights, and close the door on the screaming world, but I can no
longer find my own self behind that closed door. So I must agree that the
intensity of living can be mind boggling.
Everyone is overwhelmed. We just don't know what to do about it."
Nirav in the States believe we are all susceptible to the 'natural guidance
from the universe':
"A mind that is clogged with fear, restlessness, ego and evil intentions is
not very receptive to this guidance. A person whose mind is like a clear
channel, has an unobstructed flow of this divine energy. This energy has the
form of joy and ecstasy (after all, the prime purpose of whatever we do in
life is finding joy). When a mind is very receptive but not capable of
sustaining this boundless joy or ecstasy, it may lead to insanity.
On
the flip side is a mind that is rigid and closed, wholly submerged in
material consciousness. The middle path is the most desirable whereby the
mind slowly develops to tune to the inner voice and divine guidance, for
that is how a person can know the true purpose of his being on the planet
and can fulfil it."
Kristina agrees that drugs and alcohol work as coping mechanisms:
"I guess the point is that drugs and alcohol in some way or another make
it much easier to deal mentally and emotionally with intuitions and
sensitivities that are still in large part not completely accepted by
western cultures. They are not necessarily used to lessen the sensitivities
themselves, but maybe more to lessen the impact of the outside world's
reactions and the reactions we have been conditioned to feel ourselves.
The promotion of acceptance and openness is the key. We need to learn to be
open to integrating all aspects of life into our view of what is real... not
just those things that we can see, touch, taste, feel, and smell. We need
to be open to accepting the possibilities without always having the
answers."
Diana, a Leo, is attuned to the psychic world and really benefitted from
having sympathetic parents:
"I have long believed that those who are mentally unstable or have addictive
tendencies may be naturally more attuned to psychic energies. They are
usually not aware of this fact and have no knowledge or information about it
to help them become stabilized and deal with this ability and use it
constructively.
I have been fortunate enough to have parents that have been aware of and
interested in the psychic world since I was a child. I have always been
exposed to it and know that I can control it. Unfortunately, many have to
suffer with all the incoming energy because they don't know how to control
it. It would be interesting to work with these people and see exactly how in
tune they are to the outside influences."
The inability to express feelings can also push people closer to the
proverbial 'edge', writes Philippa:
"To your observation about heightened sensitivity or awareness as being
at least a partial cause to these conditions, I would add that an inability
to articulate or somehow express personal (life) experience or perceptions
can nudge those intensely aware humans further over the edge.
Happily (for
us) or not, a number of them come back. Think of Vincent Van Gogh's
Sunflowers, Aldous Huxley's Tunnels and David Crosby's Compass (American
Dream CD). Am I being overly simplistic here or merely obscure?"
Evelyn has pondered the subject much of her life and has come to the same
conclusion:
"I believe there are many people who have so much "cosmic energy" and "gut"
instincts that they have not learned to properly use them. Therefore, you
find humans who have no outlets for their energies in this western thinking
world. I have thought many times about this issue within myself but have
also witnessed it in others. I don't know the answers - however, I do see
patterns of dependencies on drugs, alcohol, etc. in the most sensitive and
spiritual people."
Without a guide,
Mala considers it often very difficult to deal with the gift of sensitivity:
"One escape is drugs, alcoholism but only when there is no light and all the
hopes seem to be dimmed. As a logical derivation,it seems to me that all the
gifted persons are highly sensitive but not all the sensitive persons may be
gifted yet. Although they sure have a potential for it, they may not yet be
fit to handle it."
Ariel writes of a 'broken heart':
"I am a 22 year old alcoholic and drug addicted woman. The first time I got
drunk intentionally I was 10, and the first time I ever did methamphetamines
I knew that I would do whatever I had to do to stay high as much as I
possibly could. I've been through in-patient treatment three times in the
last three years and I finally have five months sober (tomorrow) which is
the most I've ever had.I was thrilled to read your paragraph today on
sensitivity because you basically said what my mom has told me my whole life
- except I thought she was just making it up because she loved me! So thank
you. And I agree with you.
Almost all of the many alcoholics I know suffer from some sort of
sensitivity, or hypersensitivity. The people I got sober with tell me that
alcoholism is a three part disease affecting the mind, the spirit and the
body. The idea is that once we straighten out the spiritual malady (learn
humility and learn to step outside of ourselves) then the other things fall
into place. But the way it FEELS to become dependent on escaping reality,
before anyone explains any of it, is like a broken heart."
From Tours in France, Elisa writes of the serious problem affecting a female
family member, who has been diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, and is trapped
in a patriarchal marriage:
"I was recently talking to a woman friend of mine about this tragedy, and
she said something that really thwunked me between the eyes. It was this:
Most of the women who populate lunatic asylums could be de-diagnosed
tomorrow, if we could allow ourselves to realize that the proper name for
their condition is not insanity, but rage.
The trouble with that, of course, is that it indicts something - the
patriarchal establishment that robs women of our power, creativity and
genius. So much more convenient to classify us as poor irrational sick
people who have lost hold of 'reality'."
Being unable to tune into the 'voice inside' is the root of the problem for
many, writes Cynthia.
"One of the hardest things for people to do today, is to listen to the voice
inside them which tries to offer them guidance in what may be the proper
direction for their personal growth. So much of the time those things which
may be best for us, spiritually or emotionally, require going against what
we have been socially or parentally indoctrinated to believe is the ONLY
acceptable course of action."
Piscean Irene tells of her experience as a nurse:
"Twenty years ago I nursed 'senile geriatrics', and realised that where a
lot of carers had difficulty communicating with these people, I almost
invariably had no difficulty understanding their needs and emotional states.
I believe many of these people are sensitive and gifted and wise,
but are not accepted as 'normal' by society�s standards. I also have had a
long association with people of marginalised and isolated sub-cultures, and
have noticed a common theme. Most are empaths who cannot stand the pain and
so hide behind a 'heavy' front, or the veil of psychoactive drugs. Or they
are angry at life, society and the universe. Many have suffered childhood
abuse, and many of our youth routinely contemplate suicide. I think this is
because many sensitive and aware individuals are arriving on our planet in
these times of stupendous change."
Doris from Pennsylvannia has a cautionary tale with a positive outcome for
parents with gifted children.
"Our son is extremely intelligent and creative, so much so that his teachers
in school informed us that "when he shows up to class, he teaches
the class." His math teacher in the ninth grade of school said that our son
had more natural mathematical intelligence than he (the teacher) and that
there was nothing that he could teach our son.
At the age of ten, our son became troubled and serious. At the age of 13
he started using drugs to escape his boredom and energy. Fortunately for
us, we were able to place him in a residential drug rehab for 13 months at
the age of 16. They taught him how to focus his energy and assume
responsibility for his actions and his life.
During the 13 months of his residential treatment, we visited when he had
earned the privilege to have visitors. My observation of the other
residents was that I had never seen so many creative intelligent people in
one place in my life.
Our son is now almost 33 years old. He turned his life around during his
residential drug rehab, and is a functioning, intelligent, creative adult.
Had his drug problem not occurred while he was still in our charge, I cannot
imagine what his life would have been. Thank God that it happened while we
could still do something about it."
Sunny in Canada thinks the medical profession, both traditional and
alternative, need to re-examine the way the approach substance abuse.
"While programs like AA deserve to be applauded for their
work and goals, the medical profession, both traditional and alternative,
need to move closer with the spiritual world and seek the reason why so many
turn to substance abuse. Jon is correct in his thinking that these people
have a hard time in limiting their natural sensitivity. But what the hell do
you expect when we live in a society where boys are told not to cry and
girls are made to feel like day old bread if they are not married by their
mid-twenties? What happens to the highly artistic child that is pushed to
play sports when they would rather play with a paint set? What happens to
the natural athlete who is pushed to become a business executive or attorney
when they would rather be a high school P E teacher.
Drink, drank, drunk.. pot, coke, crack... don''t laugh too loudly, don't
show an abundance of happiness, work at a job you hate and that is going to
kill your soul and maybe give you a heart attack, stay in a sick
marriage become an emotional cripple and quietly go insane..."
When you 'know', you 'know' is how Janet from the UK defines 'instinct':
"Instinct is a new perspective, a sudden realization, an instant knowledge
or a deeper understanding or even deja-vu. You just 'know'.
The troubles begin when an individual wants to share that knowledge or to
respond or react to it, but can�t find the way, the right words, the right
canvas, the right lyrics - the right audience."
From down under, Seva tells how she had to resort to alcohol to dumb down
her psychic gift and how later she was able to escape her insidious habit:
"Many years ago I also was psychic and unfortunately I couldn't cope with
it. I drank a lot of alcohol to numb the influx of information. I have
since given up drinking and have learnt to control my psychic ability. How?
I simply asked for guidance. I asked my helpers (guides) to take it away
from me and so it was no more. I still sometimes have visions but generally
it is nothing I can't cope with. So I make a deliberate choice when I am
with people not to read them as I also feel this is a form of trespassing on
their psyches, unless they come to me for guidance and then I only use Tarot
as it also limits me."
Pinar in Istanbul, Turkey, offers his view 'what may be the real cause why
some sane but extraordinary people may be staying in lunatic asylums':
"I guess the answer must be as the results of their acts, whatever the
cause. The ones whose acts trespass into harming themselves or others are
most probably locked in asylums. But what I am really trying to say is, if
sensing more than other people leads to nervous breakdown so that these
people become tempted to kill themselves or others, these are a pathological
cases. But there are at lots of people with extrasensory perception, and
more still who are a genius of some kind, and millions, if not billions, who
have dependable instincts, who do not go to the lunatic
asylum."
There is much to life than meets the eye, writes Karen in the UK:
"In response to your comments on instinct and insanity, society determines
who is insane and unfortunately society has yet to wake up to the fact that
there is more to this world than what our recognised five senses can
perceive: will power to name but one. As you have said we are coming out of
an era that tries to explain everything through science. We are recognising
that not everything can or should be explained."
Melanie also in the UK takes comfort from Jonathan�s point:
"It is such a wonderful feeling when someone expresses a feeling that you
have felt but somehow never quite got it down in words or been able to
properly explain what you think. I agree completely with your theory,
[obviously this is not always the reason for the dependency,] but certain
people just can't seem to cope with the fact that they are here. They can�t
understand why they are here and why it hurts so much to be here."
Kevin in the States raises the radio station analogy:
"I remember seeing the movie, "Always" with Holly Hunter and Richard
Dreyfuss. There is a scene in that movie where they stumble onto
a homeless man. Dreyfuss is a ghost and starts saying things thinking no one
can hear him. But this homeless man does.
Maybe people like this are like radio stations, picking up messages from out
there and they sometimes seem so obscure that people think they are crazy
although it makes sense to someone somewhere.
Many of my friends are sensitive individuals. Some use drugs to slow down or
block some of the stuff that comes their way. Others suffer from depression,
not knowing whether its their stuff or not. Some people take valium (legal
drugs) to cut themselves off. When you speak with an alcoholic you often
hear the story of how they were irreversibly hurt or disappointed with what
came their way. I think its the visions, the energy of others and the past
together which determines how people deal with instinct."
US poet LA Cool writes:
"Artists are the "canaries in the coalmine" of our society. The things we
are annoyed about, but have learned to deal with tear them apart. While
going through a particularly unpleasant divorce, I had become scraped raw
and sensitive to everything. Being a writer and poet, I had an outlet for
the emotional volcano, but I vividly recall wishing I could turn off all of
the sensory input for a while. I gradually recovered from the divorce and
grew a thicker skin, but I remember wondering about some of the good pieces
of poetry I wrote during that time and the price I paid to be able to write
them."
The 'politics of craziness' is an interesting perspective raised by Cordia
"As a mental health counsellor for many years, I have often seen and felt
the dilemma of people outside the norm, especially in the area of
sensitivity. "Crazy" is after all a political definition. I feel there are
many gifted persons in our institutions who just can't cope with their
insights and want more out of life.. Sensitivity is not a high value in
today�s culture and it is difficult to survive if you haven't found a way to
accept your feelings and set up good boundaries."
Forty-eight year old Texan, Mary, thinks that sensitive people not only
frighten themselves but others with what they perceive, and she reckons it
is a truly great shame:
"It causes me such sadness when I try to imagine all the good and
wonderful things that never get a chance to occur simply because of fear.
But, unfortunately, isn't that the way of the world? Except for the helpful
side of fear which helps us protect ourselves, I wish we could
annihilate the dark side of it altogether, or teach the world to recognize
it for what it is and control it and encourage people to watch the example
of the extraordinary people in the world, who buck the system of fear and
live their lives fearLESSly."
Libran Nathalie, a sensitive from Melbourne, Australia, has a fairy god
mother:
"Love what you said about instinct and sensitivity. I have six of my planets
in the 12th house and my astrologer fairy god mother has watched my life
closely, showing me how to keep my life practical and grounded. She saved me
from a life of drugs and insanity through her commitment to have me win. How
she made this difference was to make me aware of my sensitivity and gave me
a choice where otherwise I had none. For example, she said you can take
drugs and kill yourself or you can make a contribution to humanity. Which
one is it going to be?"
Recovering alcoholic and psychic Jeffrie from Washington DC writes:
"The intuition I possess gives me the natural ability to read people deeply
and instantly on an emotional level, for most of my adult life I have been
able to experience what the people around me are both feeling and to some
extent thinking. It has as you accurately guessed caused me a great deal of
confusion and sometimes pain, imagine hearing the thoughts and feelings of
everyone you are surrounded by at a party and you can begin to understand
what I experience.
For me it operates like amplified empathy, In my case I do know how you
feel!
As for my addiction I believe I was born with the genetic predisposition for
alcoholism but I did use a combination of alcohol, marijuana, and nicotine
to dull the connection. Until I was in my mid-twenties I thought everyone
experienced what I did, It wasn't until I began experimenting with
psilocybin mushrooms with my friends that we realized that I had a peculiar
talent. They simply don't teach you about this stuff growing up in the inner
city of Chicago. If I had grown up closer to my native American traditions
perhaps I would have been taught how to manage this gift.
Today I do look at it as a gift, although for many years I thought being
hypersensitive was a type of curse."
Aquarian Ritu knows the problems of experiencing too much and wonders how to
cope:
"I consider myself to be an intuitive person and often I instinctively know
what people are feeling and thinking.This is not always helpful as often I
don't want to know all this information. It is especially difficult because
others don't really understand you. What's the best way to get around such
situations?"
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